Hey JC,
Thanks for sharing. My answers to your questions are as follows:
No. You should eat enough that you're slowly losing weight weekly (0.5lb or so), which should be enough to fuel recover for awhile.Should I up my calorie intake in order to progress on my lifts? However I'm really worried to add more bodyfat because as you can see I'm really obese.
This is most people's experience when it comes to losing weight/gaining weight. Get out of this cycle NOW. You're no longer bulking and cutting on extreme diets. You're training, eating towards your goals, and sticking with it as best as possible. Binging and restricting is not sustainable long term so cheat meals and the like are not for you, IMO.Lately as my numbers began to stall I'm becoming really depressed as I remember that I shouldn't have binged when I lost 110lbs and that I should've ate properly when I was around 230lbs. Seems to me I've been going in circles basically adding really small amount of muscle but fluctating between morbidly obese to extremely skinnyfat (my lowest weight was 85kg), while staying at the same bodyfat.
Single ingredient foods, 225g of protein a day, high fiber intake, peri workout starchy carbs, and hard training are what you need for the next year :-)