> The first thing you need to do is get some counseling for this eating disorder.
Ok, I can do that.
> You are not lifting weights that you need to drop workouts to worry about accumulating stress. Missing a workout might be *forced* on you, but it should never be *chosen*. Ditto "deloading." You are not failing to lift these weights because you are under-recovered. You are failing them because you are not strong.
No that's not my concern. I understand I'm not under-recovered, If anything I'm over-recovered. At least I feel quite recovered when I walk into the gym. I understand that the lifts are not heavy. The deadlift doesn't even feel heavy, I think I'm just missing them because I'm doing something wrong, I think I'm letting the bar pull away from my shins and I also don't think I'm properly "leg pressing" the deadlift (a cue I have never really understood). That's what I think, but I'm no coach. I'm not sure this is even a diet concern seeing as I can squat quite fine. It just feels more heavy than perhaps it should, which might be a problem with the diet. I am squatting to depth, so.
> If your deadlift is not at least 50 pounds ahead of your squat, do not power clean. Deadlift every workout until it's like, *75* pounds ahead. Cleans are a *break* from deadlifting. You do not need to take breaks.
Got it. I'm confused by the jumps I should take on the deadlift at this point. The program says 10 pound jumps the first several times. Is that still the case? I think I might've misunderstood the program on this point, I've tried reading everything I can about the jumps on the deadlift and I'm left confused. It seems like ones your deadlift is ahead of your squat you should do 5 pound jumps on the deadlift as well, and the squat will eventually catch up but that doesn't matter because at the point where they are close enough you're not taking 5 pound jumps on the squat every workout anyway. I think I got that right. But what jumps should I take in the position I'm in?