Shoulder worries consuming my life - how to resume safely after SLAP tear
I’m 99% sure I have some sort of labrum lesion in my left shoulder, probably a SLAP tear, possibly in both shoulders. No extreme pain, only mild pain every now and then and a clear feeling of some instability (more than normal clicking with associated feeling of joint movement). When opening a door sideways i feel some dull pain right around the bottom of the lateral deltoid. Some clinical tests that I performed on myself are positive, specifically the clunk test and the active compression test. (the PT I went to did not perform any labrum tests as far as I know, despite me specifically stating what I was worried about). No/almost no pain during lifting, but some clicking which I can easily work around.
Main concern is not the symptoms itself, but what the future holds. I’m only 24 and and am extremely scared that during the coming years/decades my shoulder(s) might degenerate to the point where I will need a shoulder replacement (at a young age). I have not been able to think about anything else for the past weeks. I have had these symptoms for many years without really being concerned with them, but I feel like lately they have become slightly worse (or maybe I just notice them more because I focus on it all the time).
X-ray shows “mild clavicle elevation” on the left side. I will get in contact with an orthopedic surgeon and ask for an MRI. I am preparing for the worst and that I will require surgery.
What drives me crazy is that I do not know what caused my injury. Most likely it's "bad form", but I will never be able to prove this, so I might just re-tear the labrum if I keep doing what I'm doing.
I have been lifting for 10 years now. I started with squat, deadlift, bench, press, and chinups. I have done some varying silly accessory work but never that much, and always returned to the basic lifts quickly. My back starting aching and I developed some sciatic pain through squats and deadlifts, that despite countless form checks did not resolve, so I cut those lifts out (i know i risk getting banned for this) out of fear of injury, and have basically only been doing chins, presses, incline bench press, and some lunges for the past years. I have always had my elbows abducted (so not at 90 degrees), and for the past couple of years I have always focused hard on doing the shrug during the press. In my early years I may have done this less well, I do not remember. Maybe that caused a labrum tear? My press has never been above 130 lbs, and my bench press never above 175.
I am completely at a loss as to how I have to resume training if I have to get SLAP surgery done. I absolutely do not want to re-tear anything. I guess my main questions are this:
- How likely am I to (re)tear a labrum doing a press with a proper shrug?
- Is there any truth to the idea that the bottom part of bench press places risky stress on your labrum? If so, is there any safer chest exercise that can prevent my chest from looking completely silly?
I have given up on the idea of lifting very heavy weights. I know this attitude is not greatly appreciated here, but at this point all I want is to remain somewhat fit for the rest of my life (not completely atrophied) with healthy joints.
Thank you very much for reading this, I really am at a loss.