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Originally Posted by
NobodyWillNotice
I remember failing squat reps when the bar was at 75kg.... in the year 2009.
I remember completing a set of 5 at 117.5kg and then walking away from the gym and taking a "deload" for the next few weeks because the set was so damned hard that I had no idea how I was going to repeat it two more times in that workout nor add 2.5kg to it the next time I came into the gym to squat. Basically, I pussied out.
When Rip and others say that the reason most people don't get strong is because it's hard work and people don't like hard work, it rings very true for me. I dread squat day every week. It's a constant mental battle for me to turn up to the gym and add weight to the bar and get under it. Every rep of a set of 5 from the first to the last feels like a 10RPE and that I won't be able to get the next rep. I never have a day where it feels easy. It feels heavy all the time, every time. Even on my "light" squat day I feel like I'm going to get crushed by every rep.
95% of the reason I'm not way stronger now is because of the times I've pussied out along the way because it was hard and "the bar felt heavy".
And my bench... I microloaded my bench sets of five 1.5kg or 1kg at a time all the way from 75kg up to 123kg.
Just embrace that it's going always suck for you. It's never going to feel easy. Welcome to the world of shit genetics. Just keep adding weight when you hit your 3x5. Minimize any fucking around with different programs. Minimize any time you have to take off from the gym. And you'll get there.