Not be a buzz kill in your rainbow world, but isn’t obsession how you get good? Sometimes things get sacrificed, jobs, girls, friends, hey one can’t have everything. I am not advocating this, nor disrespecting you. But sometimes you got to have it and there is a price to be paid. One probably is a better and happier person if this can be avoided but going that last yard, maybe that last inch is really intense and satisfying.